Project 50 is a social media challenge originating from Chinese short clip giant TikTok. The challenge is based on consistently showing parts of your everyday life for 50 days straight. This was my attempt at it.
Why am I giving Project 50 a try?
As a person who struggles with consistency and anxiety especially when it comes to publicizing creative projects I thought this challenge was perfect for me. Pushing myself to learn and let go and just create things and put them out in the world for people to see and judge felt so far outside of my comfort zone but like a lesson too valuable to not take it. There for I went to work and started my attempt at Project 50.
I started out with little to no expectations at myself or the videos and got pleasantly surprised. The videos turned out well and got better almost every day. It was like a mindfulness practice to find nice and interesting things to share daily.
Why did I stop?
Honestly I don’t know. I think it was the same reasons as they often are. The feeling that my content wasn’t good enough after all. That there weren’t enough likes to justify the work or simply that I was too tired, too depressed or too anxious was once again reason enough to move away from something that really helped me grow. Even before the 50 days were over.
Will I pick it back up? After writing this: I think so. I think the shame of not uploading one day builds up very quick when consistency is the most important part of the challenge. So maybe I just chill and keep the mindfulness part and create and upload these videos when it might be helpful to see all the good in my life. If I miss a day there’s no shame in it as long as I keep going in the long run. I just need to find my own Project 50.
Some of my favorite Project 50 Reels
Here’s some of my favorite content creations. Find all my Project 50 Reels on my Instagram account @mariamaamidiop.
